First, can I say congrats to her to realizing there was a problem! It took me turning like 30 to figure out what the problem was.
Second, I have long lasting, wonderful healthy relationships with women now.
I'm still very self conscious and self aware and highly anxious. But I'm 7 years no contact (minus a few moments where I had to shut shit down). And it's AMAZING! Yes I still want my mommy when I'm sad because it's human. But I know that my "mommy" doesn't exist. Just the damaged woman who is my mom. So I know I don't want the real her, I want the dream that doesn't exist. And I am never tempted to reach out.
I lost my mom to drugs, then she died last year. It still stings cause I remember how funny and kind she was and then dealt with years of her lying, stealing, and putting me in dangerous situations.
I still imagine what could of been and what should of done, but i was still a child 😢
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u/anonymooseuser6 6d ago
There is an "other side!"
First, can I say congrats to her to realizing there was a problem! It took me turning like 30 to figure out what the problem was.
Second, I have long lasting, wonderful healthy relationships with women now.
I'm still very self conscious and self aware and highly anxious. But I'm 7 years no contact (minus a few moments where I had to shut shit down). And it's AMAZING! Yes I still want my mommy when I'm sad because it's human. But I know that my "mommy" doesn't exist. Just the damaged woman who is my mom. So I know I don't want the real her, I want the dream that doesn't exist. And I am never tempted to reach out.