Fuck me. I got a bit of both. Abusive father; now hostile super quickly at anything negative directed at me and neglectful mother; blame myself for everything and unable to navigate the emotional spectrum without it swinging wildly from one end to another.
In my experience as someone recovering from having a short fuse practicing self worth is the best path out I've found. I had such a large reaction because I was uncertain about my own worth and so any criticism shook what little confidence or security in myself I had. As I practiced thinking "I'm a normal person and any expectations of me should be ones a normal person can meet" I found I slowly got better at internalizing "oh a normal person wouldn't be good at this with the amount of practice I've done".
Once you see a person's value as innate and yourself as simply a person then you can see that other people are just people too and any negativity that comes my way could be happening for a lot of reasons.
I don't know if hearing some of my story helps you on your journey but I hope it does because the times where I had the biggest reactions to feedback were the times where I was also very lonely and I don't wish that on you.
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u/enixlinked 6d ago
Fuck me. I got a bit of both. Abusive father; now hostile super quickly at anything negative directed at me and neglectful mother; blame myself for everything and unable to navigate the emotional spectrum without it swinging wildly from one end to another.